1. |
arm off
01:12
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It’s been two years
Since we talked
Since you walked
And since i called your father
Fifty weeks
You were lost
But 20 minutes since you tied your arm off
What’s the truth
What’s the cost
Would i still love you if you cut my arm off
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2. |
hung up (ba baba ba ba)
01:44
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babababababba
i think i oughta forget you
i think i wanna start sleeping again
been hung up on your voice in the hypnic jerks
and hearing from the new ones just makes it worse
they sound like "babbabababa"
10,000 cracks in the ceiling
10,000 minutes since i kept track
been hung up on your eyes and their deep brown blacks
and staring at new ones has me hope you'll call back
and i cry "babababbaba"
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3. |
dirtysix
02:08
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julie's stealing postmarks series 1986
and then scalps them on the internet
it's how she gets her kicks while
sean and denny play guitar and melt her face with licks
of a popsicle with gumball eyes
and skewered with the sticks
how are you
who am i
and what the hell is this
i think i blinked a second
fell asleep
and now i'm thirtysix
mikey stays in bed
frittering hours on the apps his
20s a collection of days spent not getting ass
and sean and denny bicker over
who owes who for gas
while the house is breaking
basement cracking
nothing good can last
how are you
who am i
and what the hell is this
i think i blinked a second
fell asleep
and now i'm thirtysix
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4. |
big fat torch
03:29
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dreamed of thumbing the exits off 84
with webs of broken glass
and needles strewn on the floor
i guess we only jumped the median once
but it felt like an era
and i felt like a dunce
discovered tolstoy in rehab
and now he's your man
i tried to like him
i dont think that i can
i can't keep track of the names
but i keep track of the days
track every dose of every lithium haze
you were bad at keeping secrets
you were good at humming a tune
i guess nobody needs secrets
i guess i just need you
i hold a big fat torch to rekindle someday
you got a lighter out of gas but a car with a tank
i hold a big fat torch to rekindle someday
you got a lighter out of gas but a car with a tank
and i let my big fat torch fill with water and rain
you filled your lighter up with gas and now can't spark up a flame
and i let my big fat torch fill with water and rain
you filled your lighter up with gas and now can't spark up a flame
dreamed i was shot in the chest by yale off i-91
i begged you 'darling please just hand me the gun'
i can't keep track of the haze
my vision started to fade
you knew me back in all my lexapro days
you were bad at keeping secrets
you were good at humming a tune
i guess nobody needs secrets
i guess i just need you
i hold a big fat torch to rekindle someday
you got a lighter out of gas but a car with a tank
i hold a big fat torch to rekindle someday
you got a lighter out of gas but a car with a tank
and i let my big fat torch fill with water and rain
you filled your lighter up with gas and now can't spark up a flame
and i let my big fat torch fill with water and rain
you filled your lighter up with gas and now can't spark up a flame
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5. |
ginny ginny
02:05
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her body floating down a river
she seeks a melancholy dane
she's sketching lighthouses and sailboats
what's the anatomy of rain?
ginny ginny can you hear me?
are you a martyr to ordain?
g-g-g-ginny can you hear me?
what's the anatomy of pain?
ginny i really love you
i really love you
i don't really want to end up like you, ginny
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6. |
waistband
02:53
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i been caught in a wasteland
i fumble with the folds of your Champion waistband
you pull me in 'cos
you'd rather kiss me
but i already miss
the way you widen your lips
the subtle curve in your hips
you said
"maybe we've been movin' too quick man"
you worry that it isn't real
you think that it's fake man
and now i miss the curve of your hips
the smile that widens your lips
smell your perfume on my sheets
and now i wander the streets
i'm screamin
i know i felt something
i know i felt something real because
i've seen when it's nothing
i've seen when it's nothing, and
i want the curve of your hips
the smile that widens your lips
smell your perfume on the sheets
and now i wander the streets
i'm screamin
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7. |
not with u
01:34
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smoking out my apartment
above the department
store where your mom bought your shoes
you wished i was younger
but you settled for older
i cooked while you flipped on the news
and though i been drinking
honey i been thinking
i could spend my whole life with you
“so do you wanna get married
do you wanna get married?”
“i do, i do, just not with you”
“so you dont wanna get married
you dont wanna get married?”
“i do, i do, just not with you”
she said “i wanna get married,
i wanna get married
i do, i do, just not with you”
“do you wanna get married
do you wanna get married?”
“i do, i do, just not with you”
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8. |
often enuf
02:40
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remember that summer
you called the shots?
the neighbors were screeching
your dad called the cops
you started drinking
to settle your thoughts
and i started smoking
was breathing exhaust
i wished you were younger
you wished i would change
i wish you were here now
so i could explain
but i think about you
think about you often enough
like this ever mattered
like we ever mattered
like anything we ever did ever mattered
she said:
"maybe i'm jobless
and maybe im lazy
and maybe i drink too much
maybe youre crazy
and maybe i think too much
maybe
im hazy
maybe i drink too much—
baby i drank too much"
i think about you
think about you often enough
like this ever mattered
like we ever mattered
like anything we ever did ever mattered
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9. |
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my hand was fishing in the nightstand
treading for purpose in the quicksand
always liked chaos and a mess man
attracted to the punks and sceneless no name bands
do you think fiction coulda fixed you?
is there no limit to the damage we could do
if we held it down for the kids?
i left some lucid dreams in escrow
and sold the rights of sloth and buffy’s one-man show
you said their life was like a french film
is there no limit to the riches we’d have known
if we held it down for the kids?
for the kids
if we held it down for the kids
i can't hold it down for the kids
i can't hold it down for the kids
if we held it down for the kids
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10. |
big fat torch (reprise)
02:30
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my fingers were bleeding
my blisters had sores
went lucid and healed them
and helped bandage yours
when i woke i smelled you in our bed
when i woke i smelled you in our bed
been bad at keeping secrets
been bad at hiding from you
i guess i gotta keep secret
how bad i've needed you
i hold a big fat torch to rekindle someday
you got a lighter out of gas but a car with a tank
i hold a big fat torch to rekindle someday
you got a lighter out of gas but a car with a tank
and i let my big fat torch fill with water and rain
you filled your lighter up with gas and now can't spark up a flame
and i let my big fat torch fill with water and rain
you filled your lighter up with gas and now can't spark up a flame
been bad at keeping secrets
been bad at hiding from you
i guess i gotta keep secret
how bad i'm missing you
how bad i'm missing you
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